"It's a weird place to be" I said through my tears,"mourning what was, while feeling such deep gratitude for what now is". God smiled and I knew He understood. "The past was painful and stifling, but it was familiar; and oddly I grew accustomed to the security of the confining limitations it placed on me. In hindsight, I understand how messed up it was; such a sorry excuse for what could have been."
God took my hand in His. "What could have been..." He said. "It was what it needed to be. The greatest lessons are learned when the predictability of life, no matter how dysfunctional, suddenly disappears like the last bit of earth at the edge of a cliff, and you're forced to take drastic measures to ensure you end up on more stable ground".
Hmmm...It was what it needed to be...I sat with that for a long while as my mind mulled over my past; it was unpleasant to say the least...and about as problematic as the plowing of a long ignored stretch of parched, rock filled soil.
"Don't allow regret to suffocate the progress that comes with change," God said. "Embrace the strength that comes from learning to flap the awkward wings of uncertainty on your journey through this mortal experience...and never let discouragement choke the gratitude that grows in the quiet corners of your heart. It will carry you far, and fuel the peace that you'll find subtly working it's way into every fiber of your being."
Truth be known, God has a plan for me. It's not turning out to be anything like I imagined it would be. Sometimes I think He might just have me confused with someone else; but in His wise and wonderful way, He reminds me, He really does know what He's doing. He is perfect in His ability to orchestrate every detail and aspect of my life, to ensure I have the privilege of learning what He knows will best aid me in becoming who He knows I can become. I just have to trust, and keep moving, putting one foot in front of the other until I reach my journey's end.
