Sunday, July 20, 2014

A Balancing Act



"Guess I wasn't paying attention," I said with a hint of disgust and regret. "It's so easy to take whatever the day throws at me; then it's over, and I realize I have nothing to show for it. Or, I have way too much proof that I went with someone else's plan for me, and I'm left with an overwhelming chaotic mess of natural consequences."

God took my hand in His and pulled me a little closer. He's such a good listener. There's nothing I'm afraid to tell Him, and He never makes me feel ashamed.

"It's easy to let life get away from you dear. There is much to say for carefully thought out plans.
And with significant guidance and direction, I can help you with priorities and perspective that will better ensure plans that fulfull a purpose. It's no better to neglect life than to waste it wishing for possesions, conditions or acheivements that lie outside of your reach. I have given you the gift of agency. Use it wisely lest you become a prisoner of someone else's choices, or circumstances the result of your choosing unwisely...or not choosing at all."

It happens once in awhile. Just out of the blue. I suddenly come to the realization that my life is out of control. I have no plan. I have no agenda. I get out of bed and life happens and I have nothing to show for it. I'm physically exhausted, emotionally spent, mentally checked out and spiritually dead. Such a price to pay for losing my focus and letting my life slip out of balance.

How grateful I am for every new day...for the chance to repent, to repair that which has gone awry or been neglected; to regroup and get myself headed again in the right direction. What a blessing that I matter enough to God that He would partner with me in planning, redirecting and fulfulling my purpose...in making my life the very best He knows it can be.